PayFuckForget
22-10-2016, 11:31 PM
Ever fell for anyone too good for you?
Like when you started knowing that person, he/she is just that down to earth and friendly type. You get to know each other through casual chats over small nothings… you try to impress your target with little achievements you made in life or silly little stories you’d have told no one else in exchange for a few ‘Wow!” or laughs.
Gradually you exchange number with that person and surprisingly, you are not the first to text. Seeing messages like “You’re actually so awesome” or “We should really meet again” and you start to feel head over heels. Then you remember you are attached or married, but that person is just too good to resist.
So you lay your way out, find excuses just to catch a glimpse of your newfound interest and continue your small talks, gaining that fleeting moments of joy, knowing that there is no ending or that it will eventually be heartbreaking. But you just want to capture every expression in your mind to remember that there was someone that could have fulfilled every aspect of your life – if only you waited.
As you see your crush smile, you realize you are too old to ‘crush’ on anyone, but dang, that smile just melts you. So you stare blankly into the eyes opposite you with mouth slightly ajar, deep in thoughts like ‘you are so gorgeous’ or ‘wonder if it’s ok if I admit I like you’. You got snapped into reality and you have to live with that numbing feeling. You go home to your bed, yeah, your significant other is there but you start finding fault. You get mad at the slightest provocation or lack of attention. You secretly wish that the person lying beside you was that person whom you are dying to see right now…. And it’s not the person right beside you. You resent yourself for being like this and tend to spend more time alone, wondering if you made the right move and yet at the same time, you contemplate if you should continue contacting your object of infatuation as you stare at the last message sent to you.
Does all these ever happen to anyone, or am I alone?
Like when you started knowing that person, he/she is just that down to earth and friendly type. You get to know each other through casual chats over small nothings… you try to impress your target with little achievements you made in life or silly little stories you’d have told no one else in exchange for a few ‘Wow!” or laughs.
Gradually you exchange number with that person and surprisingly, you are not the first to text. Seeing messages like “You’re actually so awesome” or “We should really meet again” and you start to feel head over heels. Then you remember you are attached or married, but that person is just too good to resist.
So you lay your way out, find excuses just to catch a glimpse of your newfound interest and continue your small talks, gaining that fleeting moments of joy, knowing that there is no ending or that it will eventually be heartbreaking. But you just want to capture every expression in your mind to remember that there was someone that could have fulfilled every aspect of your life – if only you waited.
As you see your crush smile, you realize you are too old to ‘crush’ on anyone, but dang, that smile just melts you. So you stare blankly into the eyes opposite you with mouth slightly ajar, deep in thoughts like ‘you are so gorgeous’ or ‘wonder if it’s ok if I admit I like you’. You got snapped into reality and you have to live with that numbing feeling. You go home to your bed, yeah, your significant other is there but you start finding fault. You get mad at the slightest provocation or lack of attention. You secretly wish that the person lying beside you was that person whom you are dying to see right now…. And it’s not the person right beside you. You resent yourself for being like this and tend to spend more time alone, wondering if you made the right move and yet at the same time, you contemplate if you should continue contacting your object of infatuation as you stare at the last message sent to you.
Does all these ever happen to anyone, or am I alone?