herafeen79
03-02-2013, 06:16 AM
There's you, someone whom I have known for a very long time. There is so many feelings and regrets that I had over our friendship, and I am really sad that we had lost touch in the last few years..
I remember how we used to enjoy singing KTV together. You were a brilliant singer, especially jacky cheung songs and I also wanted to sing duets with you, as I felt that you were worthy enough.. haha ;p
I remember your super 4, and how mad i was over motorcycles in my youth. Gone were the good old days where both of us were laid back and free of worries..
I remember the first time you held my hand when I was 18, I felt awkward as I wasn't sure of my feelings for you, and I did not expect our friendship to develop into something else. Up to now, I still think i was leading you on.
I remember the silver chain that you had given me back in poly, and the unhappiness that was brewing between us. I was such a insecure and immature girl, that I took you for granted and never appreciated what you did for me..
I remember we lost contact for a few years, and I was resigned to losing you as a friend. When I found out that you were the brother of an acquaintance that I knew from a bikes forum, I felt that my prayers were answered.
I remember how we met again after so long, and I teased you about your fixation with the gym and weights. You look so different from what I had seen you in the past, and you really caught my eye.
I remember you came to visit me in the hospital after my operation, and I was grateful for your time, but I felt really weird with one good old friend standing next to me, and a boyfriend at the other side.
I remember that we had met up more often and I had really enjoyed your company. We went to the bistro restaurant next to the Istana park, and spend a lot of time talking. You said that you were upset with me over what had happened in the past, and was angry with me for quite a period of time. I felt really guilty, because I knew how much I had hurt you with my selfish actions. But you had forgiven me.
I remember that we went to a Japanese restaurant in the esplanade, and I was gleeful that you were treating me for dinner. haizzz..
I remember when we met up, i felt really happy yet unhappy at the same time. You still mean a lot to me, but at that time I already had someone else that I gave my heart to. I was really confused with my feelings. At one end, I told myself this friendship can't go on, whereby on the other hand I keep gravitating towards you.
I remember that time when I took something precious from you. It has been so long ago, but I will never forget that particular memory, as it was filled with so much feelings. I hated myself for being so vulnerable, yet at the same time it felt so right. It was never any fault of yours, as it was all mine alone. I am really sorry.
I remember that we drifted apart and lost contact for many years up to now. Perhaps it was time to let go, to forget about past desires and thoughts. I had my own life, and I wish that you had a good one too.
All these memories hang around in my subconscious mind, weaving in and out when I least expect them to. I know I should let bygones be bygones, but why is my heart still wishing on a thin thread that I will get a chance to see you one last time?
I miss you so much J*, you were my confidante, my biker mate, my ktv "kangtao", my target for lame jokes, my fellow foodie, and so much more...
guess i have to leave it up to fate.
I remember how we used to enjoy singing KTV together. You were a brilliant singer, especially jacky cheung songs and I also wanted to sing duets with you, as I felt that you were worthy enough.. haha ;p
I remember your super 4, and how mad i was over motorcycles in my youth. Gone were the good old days where both of us were laid back and free of worries..
I remember the first time you held my hand when I was 18, I felt awkward as I wasn't sure of my feelings for you, and I did not expect our friendship to develop into something else. Up to now, I still think i was leading you on.
I remember the silver chain that you had given me back in poly, and the unhappiness that was brewing between us. I was such a insecure and immature girl, that I took you for granted and never appreciated what you did for me..
I remember we lost contact for a few years, and I was resigned to losing you as a friend. When I found out that you were the brother of an acquaintance that I knew from a bikes forum, I felt that my prayers were answered.
I remember how we met again after so long, and I teased you about your fixation with the gym and weights. You look so different from what I had seen you in the past, and you really caught my eye.
I remember you came to visit me in the hospital after my operation, and I was grateful for your time, but I felt really weird with one good old friend standing next to me, and a boyfriend at the other side.
I remember that we had met up more often and I had really enjoyed your company. We went to the bistro restaurant next to the Istana park, and spend a lot of time talking. You said that you were upset with me over what had happened in the past, and was angry with me for quite a period of time. I felt really guilty, because I knew how much I had hurt you with my selfish actions. But you had forgiven me.
I remember that we went to a Japanese restaurant in the esplanade, and I was gleeful that you were treating me for dinner. haizzz..
I remember when we met up, i felt really happy yet unhappy at the same time. You still mean a lot to me, but at that time I already had someone else that I gave my heart to. I was really confused with my feelings. At one end, I told myself this friendship can't go on, whereby on the other hand I keep gravitating towards you.
I remember that time when I took something precious from you. It has been so long ago, but I will never forget that particular memory, as it was filled with so much feelings. I hated myself for being so vulnerable, yet at the same time it felt so right. It was never any fault of yours, as it was all mine alone. I am really sorry.
I remember that we drifted apart and lost contact for many years up to now. Perhaps it was time to let go, to forget about past desires and thoughts. I had my own life, and I wish that you had a good one too.
All these memories hang around in my subconscious mind, weaving in and out when I least expect them to. I know I should let bygones be bygones, but why is my heart still wishing on a thin thread that I will get a chance to see you one last time?
I miss you so much J*, you were my confidante, my biker mate, my ktv "kangtao", my target for lame jokes, my fellow foodie, and so much more...
guess i have to leave it up to fate.