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16-12-2005, 11:25 AM
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Re: Remember when you lost your Virgin?
I'm back from a smoking break. Now the last part of my story will emphasis on how I lost contact with Fyn. Btw, I forgot to mention that I and Mary had a promise that we will not call each other during the same period of time since we were both having year end exam.
As we lie on the bed, chatting. She says that Joe never cum twice in a day. Lousy bf, I can pet with my gf in public and cum twice in a single session. Very tiring of course. I was kinda of hungry and so is she. We dress up and proceed to makan in nearby food court. I was damn hungry and ask Fyn what she like, she says she like pork and intestine (my fav). I order a large portion of braised pork meat, intestine, egg (Kway chap), carrot cake and hokkien mee. I enjoy the meal with her alot. My gf on the other hand was almost vegetarian, veges and fruits and always never like such oily and fatty stuffs. I never really enjoy a meal with Mary b4, she always comment on my food I ordered, too fatty lah, too oily lah sort of things. I found out Fyn could be my better gf then Mary and of course her kungfu in sex was excellent too. I begin to have thoughts of leaving my gf for fyn. Fyn and I have alot in common, foods, sex and hobby and she also very compromising to everything I ask. She gave me a very easy going and acommodating feeling to me. That night, we stay together in the viod deck with my bike, new super4 VersionS. Fyn too like bikes and cars unlike Mary. We were admiring my bike and then her bf call. SHe signal me to keep quiet and she begin talking on the phone. During the conversion, i heard they had a slight argument and Fyn walk a few metre away, talking with her bf. I give her some privacy and stay put at the stone table. 20mins later, she return in tears saying that she wanted to break up with her bf but Joe was persistant, not giving her up. I decided to give her time to think about it and also to give me time to think (break up with Mary). In her eyes, I can see that she was wanting an answer from me as soon as possible. To take Fyn and leave Mary. I always thought to myself as a responsible guy but doing something like that to Mary. I feel guilty. I sent Fyn home and Oh My God! Fyn's Mum... Fyn told me to leave immediately and I did. I went down stair to my bike but I never her void deck. I was worry for her, I know it is our exam period and I wouldnt want to put additional stress on her. I call her 30mins later, I know she is in tears telling me that mum scolded her. I ask her why? She told me Joe call her mum, mum was furious regarding the breaking upi issue. Joe was the apple of Fyn's parent, being a half ang mo and a nice guy. Shit man! I am the cause of her family argument and causing her to cry. I feel sad and disheartened. Fyn wanted to meet me later in about 1hr times. I oblige and say ok. 
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16-12-2005, 12:36 PM
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I linger around in her area and look for 7-11 to buy cigarette. Wasn't venturing too far cause my bike was park in her void deck, wait kanna summon. Smoke finish 1 small pack of menthol She call me on my hp at around 9.30pm and meeting me. I suggest to go some place far from here. I ride aimlessly and proceed to Serangoon Garden Coffee Bean. Nice and cosy, ordered 2 ice blended mocha. She blah all the things, argument about she and her mum/dad and Joe. She say Joe was in her house, i was like
 lucky didnt see him. She said joe was at her house, on his knees, pleading her not to leave him. I kinda of like pity Joe that I could never down on my knee for a gal, partly admired the love joe had for Fyn and thick skin enough to goes for Fyn's parents to pressurise Fyn. As for me, I still couldnt decide whether to break up with Mary. I couldnt bear the sight seeing Mary cried. I still keep quiet and listening attentively to Fny as she sprue out all her sorrow and sadness. I feel like I the one causing her to cry at the coffee bean and all eyes were on me!! Fyn told me she couldnt decide also to break up with Joe or not after all the commotion at her house. She was in a dilemma which I caused. I was too nice to her and she wanted the tenderness I gave her. 10.30pm. I feeling confused and caught in the dilemma too. I do know that her parents might have hated me that I come in between Fyn and Joe. Mary and her family will hate me if I broke with Mary for another gal. If I chose Fyn, I have to bear the confrontation of Joe and Fyn's Family and also Mary. On the other hand, I bear the unwillingness to part with Fyn and go back to Mary (She still duno anything till now). All parties will be happy. Fyn's family will be happy, Joe will be happy. Mary and her family no worries. What should I do? I wasnt going to ask Fyn for her opinion, doing so might be an insult to her. When she ask me what is my planned? I could only looked away and silent while Fyn's tear start rolling down her chin. She is more a mature person than me. Fyn understand it all. She know that I was in a dilemma and confuse also. AND THEN, I made a decision that I MOST REGRET of MY LIFE!!! Even till now, I keep knocking my head why I made that bloody stupid decision!!! I told fyn to go back to Joe and I wanted to go back to Mary. I know I was lying to myself then but seeing Fyn's eye, I know that is not the answer she was hoping for and I know that it is best for her. She began to wipe the watery eye and bravely say that: I had the most wonderful day with you that I will remember for the rest of my life (ME TOO!!). I send her back to her house sensing her unwillingness to part with me. I too was bearable of the parting and my tear, 1st time I ever cried for a gal.  I pull her hand and gave her a deep kiss one more time. She left me just like that. Next few days, was a torture for me. Mary MIA due to Exam, Fyn off her HP (also MIA) and I was taking my final year exam which is critical in getting my diploma. I decided to put my sorrow into energy for some last studies and it did turn out fairly well then I expected. During school exam, I was longing to see Fyn and she was no where to be found. Her Hp number has been changed and she just avoided me ever since. I couldnt see her during examination because she was in the different class from me. After exam, Mary call and meet me. I was totally not interested in meeting with Mary while I still miss Fyn alot. (Althought it was a one day event). I didnt say much while I keep smoking and Mary keep telling me, smoking is bad, stopped smoking this and that. Fyn never complain to me about my smoking habit, she was so accommodating to me. Still I feel guilty for deserting her while she wanted to be with me so much. I had no face to see her even thou I really like to see fyn. So I wrote a very long letter, longest letter I ever wrote plus a CD, song title "Amazed - by lion heart" I felt that this song will be our forever (Fyn and me). She had a lion heart for not blaming me anything at all and we were amazed that the love we had. I sent the letter and CD to her letter box hoping that she will call me. Days later, I keep watching over the phone, hoping that Fyn call and then A private number call. I answered, a guy over the other end told me that no such person live here, please dun disturb them again. I was so disheartened and I could recognised the voice was Joe's. Shortly after awhile, I broke up with Mary. My feeling for Mary was gone and I told her that there was no more 3rd party. I left Mary in tears as I rode away in my Super4. I keep linger around Fyn estate hoping to see Fyn and talk to her. Later, My class siao on, after exam, the entire course (all classes of same course) organise an outing chalet at East Coast. I was hoping Fyn will be there. Later that night on the 1st day of chalet, Fyn arrived, I was so delighted see her but with so many people around, I hardly got a chance to talk to her. Finally, I had a chance to talk to her alone but then she told me... she will be leaving soon, Joe is driving and coming to pick her up in 5mins.. I was abit piss off and demoralise, Joe was from a rich family, stay in Holland V, a car is nothing to him. While I work part time myself just to pay off my monthly installment and my study loan. She left in the short while and I can see that her eye were red and tear almost cried out. My two sidekicks (Nerds) sensing I was in normal state, pull me away and console. They knew whats happening and they were very supportive. Immediately, I go the fridge and grab all the beers and hard liquor that I brought for the chalet. I drank it all! All 30 persons worth of liquor and beer. My Sidekicks stay with me all the while till dawn, watching me drink up all the beer and liquor and pull me to the bathroom to puke. I was the most drunk in the entire life till now (Not even on my wedding day) and I puke at the bathroom for more than 10 times, I lost count. I was fucking sad and demoralise. Why Fyn why? Joe had a car and $$$ while I was from poor family and riding bike, support myself all the way. WHY! I never found her until 2 yrs later while in NS. I meet up some kakis in Holland V coffee bean. I know Joe live near the area and still hoping to see Fyn. There! I saw Fyn with Joe. Happily going to Coffee Bean to buy Ice Blended Mocha. She only bought one for herself and Joe dun drink Coffee. I think" Was she will thinking about the day we drunk Mocha together". Something makes me not to approach Fyn. I saw her smile, the happiness she had while she was with me. And now, she happy with Joe. Maybe I have made some impact between their love life. On yeah! (I was hiding myself with newspaper at one corner of the coffee bean cafe). I feel her life have to go on with Joe and wouldnt want to cause any more tears for Fyn again. It does really breaks my heart to see Fyn cried but not when Mary cried.
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16-12-2005, 12:46 PM
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Had to go for lunch now... no no mood to eat leh... Haiz... remember the time me and fyn had together... Well, I guess that why I lost my virgin. My 1st time and will always always remember. If Fyn ever needed help, I would put my life for her. Haiz... so sad.
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16-12-2005, 12:53 PM
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haiz. bro your story is so touching. i ever had a story, but no sex involved. thinking back i regret what i have done hiaz. but its too late liao lost contact with her already.  i know how u are feeling
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16-12-2005, 01:29 PM
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Bro, your story is touching and warm.. some parts of the story reminds me of my experiences to, although not as eventful as yours but still brings back memories.
Take care bro. ups you.
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28-12-2005, 11:49 AM
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Dear Bro, I just found out from a friend and have Fyn's home number. I have been holding on the number for the pass few days without making the call. Am I feeling chicken or should I just call and check how is she? I am in the state of confusion again.
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28-12-2005, 03:29 PM
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Bravo.. hey bro .. if you still miss her, just call her, maybe you got chance or maybe not but if u don try u confirm no chance. either way i don think u will not lose anything. hey when u got nothing ..so u got nothing to lose ... give her a call and see if things are still the same. else you can still be friends with her, cause u never know one day she might turned back. Good luck bro ... nice story!!
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28-12-2005, 05:52 PM
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28-12-2005, 07:59 PM
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Bro Hubber26, give her a call. Be decisive now. Not calling her might be a decision that will cost u much regret for the rest of ur live. Dun forget, numbers do change..
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29-12-2005, 01:38 PM
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Till this date, I still remember my ex's number and where she stays and frequents, but like you, something is just holding back to tell her, "I might have made a mistake in leaving before the final decision is made. There are a million things that could have happen if I din leave, but what I really want to say is I am sorry and I truely from the bottom of my heart, wish you well." *wipes a tear from eye*, up you my 2 miserable points.
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