My passed relationship with a night club hostess

[RealEstateGuy]

Braddah Romeo, reality will bite you in the ass when your wife asks your for a divorce and your kids stop speaking to you. Of course your lover will also announce she is pregnant.

[arsenal_84]

i think there is more to this story than sex, go on TS.
what i would say is being a married guy, is all the more difficult to have another lover outside.

[lamhai]

Came from different background with different needs, we met and shared good time together. That obviously, does not warrant we could continue our relationship and expect we both will be happy till long.

I then realize I got to end this but in progressive manner because I would not want to hurt her for too much.

That point onwards, I responded less to L sms. Out of 2 or 3 times of her initiates to go out, I went out once. I talked less when I was with her, I stepped back and fuck like a man at my age or elder. Before long, L noticed this and asked me was I in stress or was just tired. Of course I said I was OK I was fine, I always said so, with tone that telling otherwise.
This went on for couple of weeks.

Sometime end of 2009, I drove L to Port Dickson for dinner. After we finished seafood, L as usual started talking. Soon later she noticed she was the one talking and stopped. I pay the bill and we left. While driving back to the city, L said she felt I was avoiding her, and asked me if she has been over sensitive. I told her yes she has been over sensitive. We both kept silence for sometimes. She said “if you have problem let’s talk about it, I felt scared when you do not want to tell the truth and keep telling everything is ok”.
I then told her I was tired recently and not able to attend to her as frequent as it used to. “you used to be so passionate and active when we are together, what went wrong? Did I do something to you that you don’t like?”. I did not respond, one conversation lead to another, and I said “you can like me, but please don’t love me”.

After my word, L stopped talking completely. She paused for few minutes and started crying. Later, with tears she smile and said yes it is destined to come to the today stage how naïve she thought we can go longer and from smiling she cried and cried again. I asked her please don’t cry but of course it didn’t work.

After I dropped her at her condo, I drove back and could not stop feeling that I have done something really stupid.

About a week later, I received sms from L asking me if have time to come out. We went out again, went to a bistro in KL. L was her usual self, talking, drinking and hugged me after whisky, I was simply reacted to her passion as I knew I could not turn back. That night we finished early, around midnight. After L sit in my car and she went sober. Under normal routine we would be kissing and perhaps looking for a place to be intimate, but I did not take the initiative to do so. Along the journey L kept looking at outside of the car, complete silence, I could not get to see her facial expression. From the boredom she went through that evening that could not be smiling.

[lamhai]

“are we gonna end like this?”, she broke the silence and said suddenly.

I kept quiet; in fact I thought being quiet was the best way to tell the answer.

I wanted to say sorry but held it back for reasons I don’t know.

“I am not able to give you the things you need” I told her.

I dropped her at her condo and headed home, with a heavy heart.

It was end 2009 and that was the last time we went out together.
I still received sms from L on my birthday and valentine day. Each time I responded with simple sms thank you how are you hope you are doing good and so on. I thought of L sometimes, for the sex mostly, or when I passed by the places we used to patron.

Not long after that, I came to know from my friend that L changed her working place and left the club she has been working for 3 years plus there.

Did the separation started from me have caused her a lot of pain? I asked myself. I have no definite answer.

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[brightbluesky]

another emo kid in a shell...

but this time, he is packaged in a married guy status.


WTF


if only people get to know themselves more, what makes them tick or otherwise and spend more time in pursuing what they like instead of screwing around and come back with a "i am lost" thread.

[arsenal_84]

Originally Posted by brightbluesky

if only people get to know themselves more, what makes them tick or otherwise and spend more time in pursuing what they like instead of screwing around and come back with a "i am lost" thread.

well, one of my single friend also the same...always wanting the best of both worlds.
one can only be a happy bonking single or commited person in a rs, never both.
even for those who think they can get away with the best of both worlds, but how long is the dual lifestyle going to last?